Emotions are crazy things. After my nasty break-up with my ex, I was emotionally numb. Except for sadness. That one I could feel, and did for a while. But then, I started talking to people again. I slowly came out of my shell again, I could even catch myself smiling sometimes. But, when I was alone, my mind dwelled on all the depressing thoughts and memories that I tried to bury, like how her kiss tasted, how she felt in my arms, how soft her skin was against mine, things of this nature. Everything beyond the basic happy, sad, mad, I couldn't feel. It physically would not happen. COULD not happen. But then, I started talking to one person in particular. Her name was Rowan. Very soon, I caught myself smiling at the thought of talking to her that night, caught myself being jealous when she mentioned another guy. My emotions slowly came back, one by one. And then, one night, we talked continuously for almost 10 straight hours, and I started feeling the one emotion hardest to feel, and also the one I had missed the most. Affection. The feeling that I liked, and was liked by, another person. And, finally, my mind stopped keeping me awake at night with thoughts of what was and could never be. I slept through the next night, with not one dream of her. I'm finally wholy able to feel the joy and sadness of life. The smell of the roses and the sting of the thorns. I am FINALLY fully human again, and I have her to thank. So, Rowan, since I know you are reading this, thank you. For everything. You saved me. <3
On a totally different note, I have written a poem. Its official release will be Tuesday, right here on my blog. It has already leaked elsewhere on the internet. Keep an eye out for that. And as I have nothing else to say, I sign off. See you on Tuesday.
Stay Nerdy All!
You are very welcome, Brandon. And thank you, too. You don't know what you've done for me, for my self-esteem. And I'm so incredibly glad that I was able to impact your life that way... *hug* Emotions are a good thing.
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