To anyone who may read this and not know what's up, you don't get to know.
To anyone who reads this and knows what's up, yes I know these aren't fair questions, and some of them may be downright evil, but these are my thoughts and I need to put them down somewhere.
Why does she get to be okay? My life is crumbling around me, I'm basically crying myself to sleep every night (if I sleep at all, that is) and just laying in bed and wondering why the fuck I ever gave up the person who used to lay beside me. Does she feel that way? She's going out with other men now. Where the hell does that leave me? What am I supposed to do? I have no one I can talk to, except maybe Ren, but it's not like she can do anything. No one can. I'm completely alone. I'm on an island in a sea of despair and longing. I miss her, so much, and I want her back, so why the hell does she get a free pass on that? Why did she get to get over me so fast? Some people would say "months" isn't fast, but fuck them, I feel like it's going to take me years. And if she DOES actually feel the same way, why does she get to block it out? Why am I the one that has to take this hard? I bet if I dated another woman, she wouldn't even bat a fucking eyelash SO WHY DO I?! WHY DO I have to lose sleep over the fact she not only went on ONE date, but even has the second scheduled. WHY AM I THE ONE THAT'S GETTING FUCKED? Plus, she didn't even have to wait long, she's been talking to this guy for a month now. AND HE FOUND HER. She's gorgeous. She can get any man she wants. Unfortunately, the ugly bag of shit typing this damn rant apparently pissed God off, so he's like, "You know what, what the fuck, let's drop an amazing girl in this bastard's lap, then make him freak out about marriage and kids and everything, so she leaves, leaving him alone, and THEN we'll make him realize he might actually think about marrying her within a few years. AND THE IRONY IS, THE FUCKER IS TOO LATE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Hey, even better, stay with me now, we'll make it so she decides to give up on him entirely. SO HE ONLY GOT ONE CHANCE AND FUCKED IT UP. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA."
Why did I even write this? Holy shit, I'm a pathetic little fuck.
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